Thursday, September 29, 2011
Thursday, September 01, 2011
C@nCeR
1st September 2011
Consult Dr Benita Tan and she is not too happy of my conditions. Encouraged me to move my arm so as the muslces will not be tense.
Remove the drainage.
How do i feel?
Motivated to be old self again.
Consult Dr Benita Tan and she is not too happy of my conditions. Encouraged me to move my arm so as the muslces will not be tense.
Remove the drainage.
How do i feel?
Motivated to be old self again.
Tuesday, August 30, 2011
C@NC3R
30th August 2011
Hari Raya Puasa celebration.
Went out to pray at Toa Payoh Stadium with my daughter and hubby.
Went to visit my mother who is accompanying her husband at SGH
Home and wait for guests.
First to arrive: Hawama and her family
Rabia & family
Mannan & Family
Abg Manaf & Family
Hisham & family
Minah & family
Norzlan & family
Kadir & family
How do i feel?
Very very tired and dissapointed as none of the family members volunteered to help out in the kitchen or lift a finger to clear what they have eaten, eventhough they are aware of my conditions. Fortunately, Kadir's helper was there to clean all the pots and pans the kitchen area sparking clean.
Hari Raya Puasa celebration.
Went out to pray at Toa Payoh Stadium with my daughter and hubby.
Went to visit my mother who is accompanying her husband at SGH
Home and wait for guests.
First to arrive: Hawama and her family
Rabia & family
Mannan & Family
Abg Manaf & Family
Hisham & family
Minah & family
Norzlan & family
Kadir & family
How do i feel?
Very very tired and dissapointed as none of the family members volunteered to help out in the kitchen or lift a finger to clear what they have eaten, eventhough they are aware of my conditions. Fortunately, Kadir's helper was there to clean all the pots and pans the kitchen area sparking clean.
Monday, August 29, 2011
Thursday, August 25, 2011
CanCer
25 August 2011
Discharge around 11am, to Sembawang.
How do i feel?
Tightness and limited movements
Discharge around 11am, to Sembawang.
How do i feel?
Tightness and limited movements
Wednesday, August 24, 2011
Can S33r
24 August 2011
Took high blood pressure pill after 'sahur'. To SGH for surgery at 10am
Surgery postponed to 2pm.
At 1.30pm on my way out from clinic for zohor prayer, my name was called saying that the surgery room is ready. Fortunately another nurse did a check and confirmed surgery at 2pm. She suggested that i pray in the changing room and apologises for having no sejadah. I performed my zohor in the changing room accompanied by my daughter. My last prayer in sujud 'Ya Allah, I tawakal pada Mu'.
After changing, another nurse asked me whether i want to see my husband before going to the surgery room. She asked me to wait and my daughter went out to call for my husband. Parting kisses with wondering whether i will be seeing him again or not, so as for my daughter.
How do i feel?
Uncomfortable and mind fully occupied with unnecessary things. I left my fate in the hand of Allah as He knows the best for His hamba.
Pushed me into waiting room before entering operation theatre room and i told them that i am taking high blood pressure medicine but unable to tell them the name of the medicine. I told them to take the name from my daughter who is waiting outside. The nurse came back and told me that my family already left. I suggested that they call them and gave my daughter's name (the only number which i can remember at that time). Nurse came back and said that they are on their way home.
Pushed into the operation theatre where i met Dr Benita Tan. Feel sleepy and suddenly was in deep sleep and woke up to a female voice telling me that the operation is over. My left arm are attached to the high blood machine and was too sleepy to look around.
Wheeled back to the day surgery ward and the first person i saw was my daughter followed by my husband.
How do i feel?
Syukur se syukur syukurnya, thanking Allah for giving me a chance to continue living.
Later in the evening, my brother and his wife came to visit. Spent most of the night sleep. My daughter accompanied me the whole night and i was a lucky mother to have a filial daughter who attended my needs. She wiped after i urinate with no sign of disgust, am amazed with her sincerity, may Allah bless her a happy life with her loved ones.
I was on drip and on drainage below my right breast.
How do i feel?
Tightness on my right arm, unable to move it freely due to the removal of lymph nodes.
Took high blood pressure pill after 'sahur'. To SGH for surgery at 10am
Surgery postponed to 2pm.
At 1.30pm on my way out from clinic for zohor prayer, my name was called saying that the surgery room is ready. Fortunately another nurse did a check and confirmed surgery at 2pm. She suggested that i pray in the changing room and apologises for having no sejadah. I performed my zohor in the changing room accompanied by my daughter. My last prayer in sujud 'Ya Allah, I tawakal pada Mu'.
After changing, another nurse asked me whether i want to see my husband before going to the surgery room. She asked me to wait and my daughter went out to call for my husband. Parting kisses with wondering whether i will be seeing him again or not, so as for my daughter.
How do i feel?
Uncomfortable and mind fully occupied with unnecessary things. I left my fate in the hand of Allah as He knows the best for His hamba.
Pushed me into waiting room before entering operation theatre room and i told them that i am taking high blood pressure medicine but unable to tell them the name of the medicine. I told them to take the name from my daughter who is waiting outside. The nurse came back and told me that my family already left. I suggested that they call them and gave my daughter's name (the only number which i can remember at that time). Nurse came back and said that they are on their way home.
Pushed into the operation theatre where i met Dr Benita Tan. Feel sleepy and suddenly was in deep sleep and woke up to a female voice telling me that the operation is over. My left arm are attached to the high blood machine and was too sleepy to look around.
Wheeled back to the day surgery ward and the first person i saw was my daughter followed by my husband.
How do i feel?
Syukur se syukur syukurnya, thanking Allah for giving me a chance to continue living.
Later in the evening, my brother and his wife came to visit. Spent most of the night sleep. My daughter accompanied me the whole night and i was a lucky mother to have a filial daughter who attended my needs. She wiped after i urinate with no sign of disgust, am amazed with her sincerity, may Allah bless her a happy life with her loved ones.
I was on drip and on drainage below my right breast.
How do i feel?
Tightness on my right arm, unable to move it freely due to the removal of lymph nodes.
Tuesday, August 23, 2011
Can See Er
23 August 2011
Went for blood test, but i was supposed to go for body scan and bone scan on 22 August. I was not given the appointment letter as it was kept in my folder with the hospital. Anyway was able to go for body scan and blood test. As for bone scan, they will do it the day after surgery.
How do i feel?
Frustrated with admin's mistake for making unecessary worried in my family, especially my husband and daughter who asked the question: What will happen if they found out something not right during the surgery. Will it affect my well being? They assured me that it is only for find out my body conditions.
During pre surgery check up, they found that my blood pressure too high 155 and second reading is 166. I was advised to rush down to consult any GP to lower down my blood pressure.
Went to Dr Lim at Chai Chee and he prescribed me with Amlodipine 10mg. Took Amlodipine after breaking my fast and prayed for the best.
How do i feel?
Nature works in it own way...why my blood pressure suddenly shot up? Too excited!
Went for blood test, but i was supposed to go for body scan and bone scan on 22 August. I was not given the appointment letter as it was kept in my folder with the hospital. Anyway was able to go for body scan and blood test. As for bone scan, they will do it the day after surgery.
How do i feel?
Frustrated with admin's mistake for making unecessary worried in my family, especially my husband and daughter who asked the question: What will happen if they found out something not right during the surgery. Will it affect my well being? They assured me that it is only for find out my body conditions.
During pre surgery check up, they found that my blood pressure too high 155 and second reading is 166. I was advised to rush down to consult any GP to lower down my blood pressure.
Went to Dr Lim at Chai Chee and he prescribed me with Amlodipine 10mg. Took Amlodipine after breaking my fast and prayed for the best.
How do i feel?
Nature works in it own way...why my blood pressure suddenly shot up? Too excited!
Friday, August 19, 2011
SeeAyNSeeEeR
19 August 2011
Dr Benita Tan is away, so i met a lady doctor. She told me that the cell is cancerous and suggested that i go for surgery. There are three types of surgery to choose:
1) Remove only the cancerous part which is only about 70 to 80%
2) Remove the whole breast which is 99%
3) Remove and reconstructed the breast using the stomach muscle.
Unable to give my decision as i was in total numb to feeling at that moment. I shed tears when one of the nurses comforted me outside the doctor's room.
They referred me to consult Sister Sara for further clarification on breast surgery. I requested to wait for my husband. Went out and call my husband but he is on the way for Friday prayer. Called him again, he is back to hotel. I asked him to come to SGH. Waited for him and found a place to talk at taxi stand. Told him that i have been diagnosed breast cancer.
Went in to consult sister Sara, but was referred to Sister Shanti. She explained all the procedures. I choose the second option, to remove the whole breast and lymph nodes.
How do i feel?
I accepted the fact, but still hoping that it is not too serious but worried.
Dr Benita Tan is away, so i met a lady doctor. She told me that the cell is cancerous and suggested that i go for surgery. There are three types of surgery to choose:
1) Remove only the cancerous part which is only about 70 to 80%
2) Remove the whole breast which is 99%
3) Remove and reconstructed the breast using the stomach muscle.
Unable to give my decision as i was in total numb to feeling at that moment. I shed tears when one of the nurses comforted me outside the doctor's room.
They referred me to consult Sister Sara for further clarification on breast surgery. I requested to wait for my husband. Went out and call my husband but he is on the way for Friday prayer. Called him again, he is back to hotel. I asked him to come to SGH. Waited for him and found a place to talk at taxi stand. Told him that i have been diagnosed breast cancer.
Went in to consult sister Sara, but was referred to Sister Shanti. She explained all the procedures. I choose the second option, to remove the whole breast and lymph nodes.
How do i feel?
I accepted the fact, but still hoping that it is not too serious but worried.
Monday, August 15, 2011
SeeAyEnSeeEeR
15th August 2011.
Undergo biopsy and i break my fast at 12noon with the dates given by one of the parents and zam zam water.
How do i feel?
Worried and still clinging to my hope.
Undergo biopsy and i break my fast at 12noon with the dates given by one of the parents and zam zam water.
How do i feel?
Worried and still clinging to my hope.
Friday, August 05, 2011
C@nC3r
5th August 2011
Dr Benita Tan required that i go for biopsy to confirm the status of the cell as they found two spot, one just above the nipple and one at the lymph nodes (under the armpit).
When? on 15 August 2011.
How do i feel?
worried and still cling on hoping nothing is serious.
Dr Benita Tan required that i go for biopsy to confirm the status of the cell as they found two spot, one just above the nipple and one at the lymph nodes (under the armpit).
When? on 15 August 2011.
How do i feel?
worried and still cling on hoping nothing is serious.
Tuesday, July 26, 2011
C@nC3r
26 July 2011
Went for mammogram and scanning.
Nothing much was said about it, except they just asked me to see Dr Benita Tan on 5th August 2011.
How do i feel?
Worried and worried but still prayed that nothing serious.
Went for mammogram and scanning.
Nothing much was said about it, except they just asked me to see Dr Benita Tan on 5th August 2011.
How do i feel?
Worried and worried but still prayed that nothing serious.
Thursday, July 21, 2011
CANCER
21st July 2011 (Friday)
To Singapore General Hospital (SGH)
Dr Benita Tan made a scan but cant see much as there is too much fat covering. She suspected that it might be cancer but i need to go for further test to confirm it.
How do I feel?
Worried, but as usual still prayed that it is not cancer.
To Singapore General Hospital (SGH)
Dr Benita Tan made a scan but cant see much as there is too much fat covering. She suspected that it might be cancer but i need to go for further test to confirm it.
How do I feel?
Worried, but as usual still prayed that it is not cancer.
Friday, July 08, 2011
Our Proud Moments
Apple of my eyes, graduated in science
Our proud moments as parents
She did it!
Congratulations!
Feeling ecstasy
Tuesday, July 05, 2011
CANCER
5th July 2011
To Bedok Polyclinic
How?
Not a good sign, as doctor immediately asked me to choose which hospital that i prefer to go. So, with cancer in mind, i choose Singapore General Hospital.
Made appointment on 21st July 2011.
How do I feel?
Worried, but still prayed that nothing serious, hoping that the lump is just a lump.
To Bedok Polyclinic
How?
Not a good sign, as doctor immediately asked me to choose which hospital that i prefer to go. So, with cancer in mind, i choose Singapore General Hospital.
Made appointment on 21st July 2011.
How do I feel?
Worried, but still prayed that nothing serious, hoping that the lump is just a lump.
Monday, July 04, 2011
CANCER
4th July 2011
To Healthplus Clinic
Why?
Way back somewhere in May/June, have tingling feeling on my right breast just above the nipple. Not itchl but sense of tingling when there is nothing.
When the tingling disappeared, i observed that my right breast bigger than normal and i just brushed it off thinking that i put on weight.
Sharp pain suddenly developed on and off especially in June
Consulted Dr Dina Quek of Healthplus, she referred me to polyclinic as she suspected cancer. For subsidies rate, i need to have polyclinic to refer me to hospital.
How do i feel? Worried but prayed for the best and nothing serious.
To Healthplus Clinic
Why?
Way back somewhere in May/June, have tingling feeling on my right breast just above the nipple. Not itchl but sense of tingling when there is nothing.
When the tingling disappeared, i observed that my right breast bigger than normal and i just brushed it off thinking that i put on weight.
Sharp pain suddenly developed on and off especially in June
Consulted Dr Dina Quek of Healthplus, she referred me to polyclinic as she suspected cancer. For subsidies rate, i need to have polyclinic to refer me to hospital.
How do i feel? Worried but prayed for the best and nothing serious.
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