Yes, i might be seen smiling and dancing crazily in school....it's just a camouflage to my uncertainity. Feeling very down lately and God knows why. What is there that made me what i'm feeling right now? It's getting from bad to worse lately and i'm not sure whether i could take it anymore. People were saying that i'm crazy for making my life upside down busy by taking the killer course Diploma in Teaching - Leadership, with no intention of becoming a principal. I asked myself that too.....hehehe i just brushed off by saying that i wanna show off. I asked myself again, is that true? Is that the real reason? I'm bullshitting myself. AWARA, your uncertainity is the culprit for what you're doing right now. Am I running away from it by making myself dead busy in order to forget about my uncertainty? Oh please Allah, do give me your guidance and for my mother, my hubby, my brothers and my beloved daughter whom i lay all my hope on. God is trying to wake me up from my slumber life---a perfect picture of a happy family potrait----good looking suave hubby, pretty lovely well behaved child, forever young looking mother with flawless complexion and a tiny winy little cat smiling broadly infront of the camera saying "cheeesseeee" and not knowing that out there someone or somebody is giggling to my stupidity. What is happening to my life with all these uncertainity or should i say that insanity is overtaking my sound mind. That guy is not peeping through my front door key hole anymore, he is now inserting the key in order to invite me out.......Ready or not, i'm coming!!! Oh please God, do let me go peacefully and do let me bring along all the prayers of my only child for my next life companion. Amin!
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