23 Nov

At around 3.50am Hamidah and I went out to look for musafirs when Hamidah's intentions to give alms to them. Unable to find any as most of them already left for Subuh prayer in the mosque. When in the mosque and look for a spot to pray and to stay longer in it. But due to nature call...need to leave the mosque. While searching for the exit, I stumbled upon a so called basement where Sai were performed. At the end of safa, they left a portion of the hill where Siti Hajar climbed in searched of water. My eyes suddenly swelled when i noticed how rough and corrugated hill...no feeling i could express at that moment, just a doa may Allah blessed her sould and placed her in his Jannah, Amin.

Day 10

After breakfast at 7.45am, jemaahs to assemble at lobby. I walked down the stairs from 16th floor as not wanting to be late on this historical moments of my life and my legs were wobbling while hearing their instructions but I am confident that everything that happened there is hikmah...thinking about it, maybe it is one way of warming up before the long walk. The tawaf and sai were done simultaneously and led by Ustaz Mohamad Noor. Weather was on my side, soles ache but i survived...no comparison will be able to be compared to Siti Hajar ordeal looking for water at the barren land. Completed my tawaf and sai at 11.20am, Amin Ya Rabbal'alamin.

Perform my maghrib and isyak at Masjidil Haram. Felt so fortunate to be staying at Kilaf Indah, not going to waste such a fortune to miss performing my prayers there compared to some who need to travel 2.5km to Masjidil Haram.

Haj 2010 - (Day 10-Tawaf Ifadah)

20 November 2010
In the morning after breakfast, we get ready to perform our tawaf Ifadah a.k.a. tawaf haji. This tawaf was led by Ustaz Mohamad Noor. After tawaf we went for Sai. That is the completion of our rituals for Haji....Alhamdulillah my wishes to complete this rituals completion without glitch.

Haj 2010 (Day 9 - To Mecca)

19 November 2010 (Saturday)

We left for Mecca after breakfast. An unfortunate or should i say fortunate thing happened. One of the jemaah collapsed while preparing to leave for Mecca.

We reached Mecca - Kilaf Kinda Hotel which situated just about 150m away from Masjidil Haram. I was shocked to found that our room facing the entrance to Masjidil Haram but not able to see the Ka'aba.

Haj 2010 (Day Eight)

19 November 2010 (Friday)
Prepare to leave Mina. Left Mina for Aziziah in the morning after breakfast. Reached Aziziah just in time for the men for Friday prayer.
We were placed in the same room with the same room mates. Nothing much activities to do, just the normal routine.

Hajj 2010 (Day Seven - 1st Melontar of 3 Jamrahs

18 November 2010 (Thursday)
After two cancellations, we managed to melontar the 3 jamrahs. We left after sholat Isya'. Saadiah came along and she carried a stool along for her to rest whenever needed. This time walk is not as emo as the first one where i felt undescribable feeling, maybe due to not what to expect in the first walk. We took different route via a long tunnel and it seem shorter distance compared to the first walk. After managed to stone two rounds of the 3 jamrahs, we waited in the vicinity for the clock to strike midnight to stone the last rounds of the 3 jamrahs. Immediately at 1am, we performed our last stone of the 3 jamrahs. Walk back to our maktab.

With Saadiah and Rasheedah

Haj 2010 (Day Six) Mina

17 November 2010 (Wednesday)
Day spent waiting for the next throw of the 3 Jamrahs.
Feeling sad for no apparent reasons. Oh Allah please guide me to your path and i prayed for my well being physically and mentally. Please accept all my doings and sacrifices in the name of Allah.
Our intention of going to Jamrahs were cancelled due to strong wind c/w thunder and lightning around 7pm. "Ya Allah, sesungguhnya aku mohon kepada Mu kebaikan angin ini, kebaikan apa yang ada didalamnya dan kebaikan tujuan angin dihembuskan. Aku berlindung kepada Mu daripada kejahatan angin ini, kejahatan apa yang didalamnya dan kejahatan tujuan angin dihembuskan, Amin'

The mountain turns into gold during the sunset after the rain.

Haj 2010 (Day Five) Mina - Melontar

16 November 2010 Mina

Spent whole night till dawn under the open sky of Mudzalifah.

Sky of Mudzalifah at night.

At dawn we leave Mudzalifah for Mina around 7am.

We reached Mina almost noon, a short distance from Mudzalifah but due to road congested with humans and traffic it took us hours to reach Mina.

View from Maktab 96 (where Singaporean were placed).

Our Maktab is at the somewhere overlooking the above pic maktab.

By 6.50pm after Maghrib, we continue our journey and this time we were going to Melontar Jamrahtul Aqabah, the biggest Jamrah of the three Jamrahs. We walked from Maktab to Jamrah about 15km away reciting 'Labbaikkaulah humma labaik....'

Immediately after throwing the 7 stones, Kak Ju did the Tahlul Awwal and proceed on foot back to Maktab. Reached Maktab around 9.20pm, physically exhausted and spiritually strong, Alhamdulillah!

On the way back, we recite Takbir Raya.

Hajj 2010 (Day Four) Arafah

15 November 2010 (Monday)
After Isya around 8.45pm we leave for Arafah. Reached there around 10.20pm. We were given a tent to rest till the next day. Here we prayed for the well being of self, loved ones near and far and we seek forgiveness for the wrong doings which were done by self and loved ones.

The sky of Arafah from under my tent

Hajj 2010 (Day Three) Aziziah

14 November 2010 (Sunday)
Spent time at Aziziah and prepare to go Arafah the next day.
Habits die hard...and while still in ihram, I forgetfully snip out one of my toes dried skins...ouchhh i will be penalised for it, will confirm with Ustaz later.

Hajj 2010 (Day Two) Tawaf Qudum

13 November 2010 (Saturday)
We reached Aziziah around 2am and we were placed 5 person to a room, myself, Sadiah, Hamidah, Rasheedah and Zulfa. It was a private family apartment and they rent it out during Haj. The apartment was huge with lift attached to every floor.



After Subuh, we prepare to do our tawaf Qudum (welcome), so we leave at 7.30am for Masjidil Haram. 8.00am my first sight of Ka'aba. Performed our tawaf Qudum and back to Azizial. After Isya around 8.45pm we leave for Arafah and reached there around 10.20pm. It was not that far but due to heavy traffic, our bus move at a slow speed.


My first close encounter with Ka'aba, Masyallah!


My first sight of Masjidil Haram

Hajj 2010 (Day One-Part 2) Jeddah to Aziziah

Musollah in Jeddah

Area where i get them to stamp my passport

Waiting in Jeddah International Haj Airport

12 November 2010 (Friday) - Saudi Arabia's date
Due to time different as Saudi Arabia is behind 6 hours of Singapore Time. Anyway reached Jeddah International Airport (specially operated during Haj) the day is already dark. The waiting time is really way too long to wait, but we have no other choice but to keep on waiting in the waiting area before we managed to get to check our passport. Upon found my luggage another waiting game to go through...where they have to check and take some documents from our passport. Now is the waiting game started...we prayed Maghrib and Isyak at the moushollah. Waited for the bus which will bring us to Makkah, and after waiting for long period of time we boarded the bus and the waiting continue...where I fall asleep and woke up and still in the bus waiting (for what? i dont know). It was not comfortable to be in the bus as there is no leg room in my seat, but what to do? bear with it and continue waiting.
At a stop, we were given Zam Zam Water, where i quenched my thirst. Another stop we were given a blue rubber bracelet for identification when we in Mina. Lost count of number of stops we made while travelling to Aziziah (one of a town in Makkah).
Reached Aziziah almost Subuh prayer.

Our luggages on one of the bus

Signboard at one of the stops.

Hajj 2010 (Day One) Spore to Jeddah

Check-in luggage before actual day departure

On the way to airport

My beloved family sending off

Sadiah, Hamidah and me

View Onboard Saudia Arabia Airlines SV 5095

12 November 2010 (Friday)
10.30am to be in Changi International Airport to check-in for Jeddah, my first leg in performing my Haj Saudia Arabia Airlines SV5095 and boarding time to be 12 noon. Leave my house at 8.30am My family: Hubby, daughter, mother, brother Manaf & his wife and children Hafiz, Farah, Norzlan and Hisham with his wife, daughter, son and bibik.
Once in the boarding room, I was very emotional thinking of my daughter and what to expect in the days to come.

12 November 2010

Yes, my dream destination is coming soon....but too sad that i'm going there alone and there goes of my dream to be with my hubby and daughter. Too sad a word to describe what is going in my mind right now, so i just left it to take it course and will go through it day by day. Ready or not here i come!!

Hi Tea

Hi Tea with my beloved eldest brother and his two grandsons, Harris and Ryan

Kasihnya Ibu

Now then i realised how worried a mother can be. A feeling which will never can be describe in word/s. My mother used to say that she is worried when i'm home late or did not call her whenever i'm overseas. Oh my dear mother, please forgive me for my ignorant. That's what in Malay community they always said 'Syorga di telapak kaki ibu' (Heaven is underneath your mother's feet), I swear and i believe it! I thought giving birth is like fighting a battle at the tip of the blade, but once u conquered it, that it...you won BUT a mother worrying about her children for the rest of her life....u have to go through it in order to feel how i felt the night before. Oh Allah, please love my mother as how she loved me when i was a child and now, Amin Ya Rabbal'alamin.

LOST

Feel sad and sorry for my daughter, she lost Euro$600. I knew she is careful but maybe not her 'rezeki'. Whatever it is, i took it as part and parcel when u are travelling. May Allah give her His guidance and a safe journey, Amin

Sleepless nights

Having sleepless nights for the past few days....missing my beloved daughter and worrying about her welfare being. She is travelling from Nice to Barcelona, transitting train at Montpeiller. She reached Barcelona at about 12 md (local time) and saying that she's looking for the domestic train station and the people there are not friendly. A slight relief when she said that she is already in the train heading to the hostel and feeling very tired. That worries me a lot. Unable to sleep till 6.30am when i called her.......(no word/s to describe) what a relief when i heard her voice and she is already in the hostel. May Allah protect her from evil eyes and may she has a safe journey, Amin Ya Rabbal'alamin.

BZ zzz week

A bz day or would i say a bz week ... mass registration whole day on Tuesday, cluster meeting on Wednesday and a real hot and muggy day on Thursday field trip to Sentosa - Images of Singapore, rather not an appropriate place to visit for the pre nursery and nursery, what a waste of $$.

Two of my teachers are not on good term. Both from different culture background and have different frequency. Both are loud but one has the habit of turning words to her advantage. Haizz just cant understand why two grown up or should i say matured ladies unable to compromise or give and take. What values are they trying to part when they themselves unable to share and care, no respect, no responsibility and no trustworthy. It gonna be a long and winding issue to settle.

Had Hi-Tea with my friends at Carousel. A get together exchanging knowledge with interval of GOSSIP ...., a best topic for conversation to spice up our meeting.

Received postcards from my beloved little mermaid when she's in Rome. One for her dad stating that she met a group of middle aged Japanese backpackers....hinting to him GO BACKPACKING!
i love it if he agreed to it. I'm in the middle of planning budget holiday with my hubby next year and i doubt he will agreed to it. If not, then i'll go with my friend. Wait and see.

Flying in the aeroplane to see the clouds go by

My beloved little mermaid fly to Rome via Dubai.
Sent her off at 12.05am and she called me around 11am that she already reached Dubai for the transit flight to Rome.
She called at 11.00am saying that she in transit at Dubai to Rome.
She callled again at 8.30pm saying that she is Rome.
She smsed me at 12.10am saying that she already in a hostel

Raising Interested Readers

Raising Interested Readers.
15 May 2010, this is my first in organising talks for parents. I was a little nervous as I did not know or expect what will happen or to be happened. But everything went smoothly except some teething problem which is not due to me but due to the lecturer. Her laptop is not compatible to my projector and it went dead half way. Luck on my side as I had the school's laptop within reach.
On the whole, 60 out of 100%.
She answered phone call twice which is not professional.
She is not able to convey the message clearly upfront. Two hours was rather a drag for me.

Beside this issue, I was quite taken aback with the cleaner auntie. I called her yesterday about today talk and she seem not happy saying that she will not be around. After getting Jasmine to deactive the office alarm in the morning, I call her again reminding her to activate the alarm after the talk which will be around 1pm. But she said she will only be home late at night, so I said that is fine with me. To my surprise, she came at 1pm with her hubby and started to clean the classroom. I dont know what is her message to me!! My message is, I'm not going to be chinchai with her anymore. All talks will be held here! regardless her being tired!

Go for it!

I am happy and elated for being of what i am today. Eventhough there's lots of work to be done and all the works related to teachers' performance. How well i lead them is how my school will turn out to be. I will try my very best to be the best. I'll start from the lowest rung of ladder and my destination is at the top....i did not bullshit my way up!

A piece of sh**

Sometimes, I felt puzzled as to why you will started to grumble about not being happy with what you have. You went for interview and negotiate your salary and you agreed to it and next moment felt unhappy of not being paid enough.....if not enough in the first place, why accept the offer? Nobody is pointing a knife to your neck to accept the offer. Just cant understand why people are like that. Make other people's life difficult.

GO!!

Why am i feeling very sad and down since this evening? Just had dinner with my daughter and hubby....but still feeling something very heavy which made me breathless....haizzzzzzzz maybe because of the letter i received for haj. I want to go but i really want to go and i really really want to go as i cant wait no more, as the saying goes : tide waits for no man. But on the other hand.....am i being selfish? nope...i dont think so, as i am using my late father's hard earned cash. There goes my dream of performing with my daughter and hubby which i think made me very very sad.....but i cant wait any longer as i see nothing have been done for us to go except me and my dream. But to think again, the letter is only a survey which did not guarantee me of a place to go this year. I leave it to Allah, to go or not to go, but my heart already set....GO!!

Juz love this caption

There are some children who, after digging their parents’ heart out to eat, fall while running away, dropping the heart on the ground. The heart, covered in soil said this: “My child, are you all right?” That’s what parents are. (quote from a Korean drama subtitle)

My beloved bapak

I strongly believed if someone said "He/She is always in my mind". When I think of my late father, my tears will never failed to flow and my heart will goes abyss. This will strick me whenever I'm alone just now now....tossing myself to sleep. All the memories that i had with him started to replay in my mind and that made me the saddest daughter/human being in the world. I prayed that may Allah showered him with His mercy and love and forgive his sins (if any) and placed him with His beloved subjects....Amin Ya Rabbal'alamin.

Singapore 'Sakura'

Singapore 'Sakura' purple and white, right infront of my school at Bedok Reservoir.

Life have to go on

Went to my ex class this afternoon. I'm very touched by the respond of the children to see their sparkling eyes and there is lot of complains. A grandmother of a boy called me saying that his grandson refused to go school and teacher Awara is not there. The new teacher always scolded him and said that he is naughty. Other parents too commented that they are happy that their children able to learn at a fast speed due to my teaching. Another parent said that his son is back to his normal self when i was not around, now he refused to do his work or sit at his place. I told them that eventhough i loved all of them, but it would be disadvantage of me for not accepting the promotion to be a principal as i need to upgrade myself. I hope they understand my situation.

lame reasons

Hahaha just wanna share how lame a reason a human of this century can produce:
Why dont you donate:
I have no small notes

Since u can afford, why dont u get a car?
Noooo i'm a lazy person, and it is so troublesome to tear the parking coupons!

To be a principal? I'm not interested............yet she is taking a principal course!

Bye bye Orchid 2010

Bye bye Orchid: Brandon Poon, Bryan Leck, Chia Li Ting, Elton Phey, Hu Qiao Xi, Joel Gn, John Quek, Kok Hai Lin, Lai Xin Rong, Lou Shu Hui, Loh Gan Yi, Michelle Lim, Ning Tay, Ong Yu Jie, Ronaldo Low, Soo Xin Yi, Tham Yew Yang, Wong Jing Xuan and Yeo Jun Siang

My last class 12 March 2010

Flower bouquet by K2 Orchid

Attendance Apple Tree

Birthday Chart K1 & K2

Art & Craft

My last theme: Food Pyramid

Latest visit

Have not been visiting my father's grave for quite sometime. When I was there recently, surprised me with the full bloom of hibiscus, my father's favourite flower.

My children

Dont know why I'm feeling sad after reading my children's register. A boy K was born by a young single mother of the age of my daughter and now he is 5 year-old. Such a young age, he is without father. I played with him the day before, 'eyes fighting' which i used to play with my daughter when she was that age.
Another boy D too from a single parent. His grandma told me that his mother said that D will be better be my daughter as we looked alike.
S too from single parent and in financial difficulty as his monthly fee is hard to meet. My heart goes to all of them.