GO!!

Why am i feeling very sad and down since this evening? Just had dinner with my daughter and hubby....but still feeling something very heavy which made me breathless....haizzzzzzzz maybe because of the letter i received for haj. I want to go but i really want to go and i really really want to go as i cant wait no more, as the saying goes : tide waits for no man. But on the other hand.....am i being selfish? nope...i dont think so, as i am using my late father's hard earned cash. There goes my dream of performing with my daughter and hubby which i think made me very very sad.....but i cant wait any longer as i see nothing have been done for us to go except me and my dream. But to think again, the letter is only a survey which did not guarantee me of a place to go this year. I leave it to Allah, to go or not to go, but my heart already set....GO!!